20141116

Never

I read somewhere that the most important things in life happen to us when we are busy making other plans, when we least expect it.
This proved to be true reflecting on my personal past.

We tend to "get used" to what we have and feel a special comfort in it, even when we are suffering, even when it makes us suffocate and makes our present a living hell. 
We have several kinds of fear:
fear of change,
fear of the idea of having to work something anew,
fear to be disappointed again,
fear of going through the same shit again,
fear of failure,
fear of not being up to expectations,
fear of having really found what we always wanted,
fear of being happy,
fear of actually changing a life full of discernible patterns on any level whether psychological, emotional, relational, professional, etc...

Taking the plunge into any new adventure/project, no matter its nature, requires lots of guts and it becomes harder to achieve the older we get. One being a thinker and sensitive by nature makes things even harder.

I have learned that the best moment of any life-changing decision is the moment you take the aforementioned plunge, because you are never fully ready to any change in your life.

So, next time you know what you have, do not think of what may be, just take that plunge and see where it will take you.
The unknown is beautiful if your present base is solid and beautiful.

So, my friend, are you ready?
Never.

Drink water.

20140925

Her

The worst feeling in the world is losing love you once had.
"I don't love you anymore" / "I have no feelings for you anymore" are two of the worst sentences one can hear, read or feel. I stressed on the "anymore" because it proves the vanishing of a love that once was.

Sadly, I have experienced the above twice in my life till now, it's no big deal –shit happens.
I sure hope I will never live through it again though.

What matters is what happened after I went through the above mentioned state: I found Her.
Yes.
I-found-Her.

Her is a beautiful person inside-out, she is a mix of natural goodness, sweet empathy, bits of the moon, adventurous spirit, sensitive soul and agile mind.
Her never stops amazing me especially in Silence.
Her continues my sentences, knows what I am thinking and laughs at my silly jokes –worse, she comes up with even sillier ones.
Her's smile makes me forget all the worries in the world.
Her understands all my sides although she barely knows me.
Her makes me feel good about myself even when I am feeling down.
Her is me and vice-versa.
Her is indescribable in words...
Now I wait... for good things are worth waiting for and September with its awesome clouds holds endless promises.

"All makes sense now... The band is ready, the lights are low, the people left and I stand alone in the middle of that wrecked hall waiting for you to join me for this final dance..."
–Me to Her on one summer night